I am in a wretched mood

"is it too late?/ nothing to salvage/ you look away/ clear of the damage/ the meaning to/ our words of love/ has disappeared" dangerous and Moving

so i think there is a song out there for every possible situation... And they might possibly all be in my CD case... i am looking for an escape from this wretched mood and i am finding reminders all over. Such is life i guess.

"i complicated our lives/ by falling in love with him/ i complicated our lives/ now I'm losing my only friend/ i don't know why/ i had to try/ living my life on the other side/ now I'm so confused/ i don't know what to do/ he loves me/ he loves me not/ she loves me/ she loves me not/ i started blurring the lines/ cause i didn't care/ i started crossing the lines/ cause you were never there/ nowhere to turn/ no one to help/ its almost like i don't even know myself/ now i have to choose/ i don't know what to do..." t.A.T.u.

so i have been erased... Again.... i give up... i never will give up, but i will say I'm giving up. Its better for all involved.

now on to happy news... i got new underwear (yah!) cause all of mine was disappearing. So i got lots of new lacy cheekies. They make me happy they are very sexy without being uncomfortable... And they make my ass look fabulous.

so I'm supposed to go to the Boo Ball tonight... But my boss called an emergency meeting this evening so it looks like i wont be having fun... Maybe i can get strep or something... i was sick all this week so I'm just not feeling better yet? Eh I'll wind up going i know I'll wind up going because work is the only stable thing in my life right now... And as much as i would like to rock the boat i know i wont.

i need to go out. i need to have fun and dance in the parking lot. i went to hooters last night and started dancing in that parking lot... But Supes just looked at me like i was insane instead of joining, i guess when you break up with a person a couple of times they feel they don't need to join in the insanity. i need a girls night out but the girls are in Vegas, cruces, Chicago, and Boston. Mandy and Tiffany are in town but mandy thinks I'm psychotic (which i am) and everytime i see tiffany i want to gouge her eyes out with a plastic spork (my weapon of choice) because of the way she treats Larry.

Larry is one of the sweetest guys i know, he's funny and witty, and kind, and considerate and apparently a very good kisser from what i have heard. He is married to tiffany, who is the complete opposite. i have known Larry for years and she has changed him from what i described before to a little bitch... No no the word bitch implies some control, he's a pussy... No not even that Larry has turned into a pubic hair. Now tiffany may not be that bad of a person waaayyyy deep down inside. But she is controlling and needy and annoying. She is all of my bad traits amplified a hundred times, maybe that's why i cant stand her so much... The problem is she's always with Larry its a package deal, no one can hang out with him without her, but no one likes her.

i am just ranting today so i think i will zip it and go and grab some lunch before i have to go to work. i am in a bad mood but i don't wanna be chewing on my kneecap when i get out of it. Which is a problem i face all too often.