Spoiled American

interesting fact... everytime i play Marylin Manson in my car i think my phone is ringing... i only have one ringer that is Manson (sweet dreams) and its assigned to lindsey so needless to say it hasnt played in forever... but everytime i freak out and search for my phone.

So i was crusin around in a '06 saturn ion with my new hairdo talking on the car phone (does it count as a car phone when the whole car is a phone?) when i realized i really am spoiled despite all the comments i make that i have no money... i also realized this when i started thinking well if i sync my palm with my computer and then bluetooth my phone to my palm can i have the internet? my only consolation that the poor valley girl that i was growing up is that i did not buy myself any of these things except the computer which techinically the school bought... and sadly the car is not mine... and i am afraid to drive it cause i have a tendency to wreck Supe's new vehicles... ok only one, but one is enough wouldnt you agree? so i am a spoiled american and yet i am not... i hope that those who have more than me will see themselves as spoiled as well and we should all burn in hell if we dont appreciate it (im sure i will burn for other reasons but i may as well add this to the list.)

i had a loooonnnngggg post the other day but the internet decided to eat it (the computer ate my home work ms. andrea) and it is long gone. sadly. well i may post all the stuff again... maybe not supes makes me sad he has worked three days this week and will make more than i make in two weeks well that and his family is psychotic... more so than mine...for sure. so i am thinking that in november (43 days tmbd... yay!) i will take bartending classes so i can moonlight and actually make money. and this is also helpful since i dont know where i will be living next year here... in the dorms... in el paso.. in vegas... in london... paris... haha so those are mostly out of the question though if i do go back to UNM i will stay in the dorms so i am less distracted and i actually get an education out of my educational experience... maybe it depends on how my life goes and right now i am sooo confused cause everything is kinda in the air... but im sure it will crash down soon.

so now the last post i will make on the woman... i think she is over me.... that sounds wrong but i cant think of anyother way to put it. and i will stop caring go back to my old routine come over here whenever i want and let her live her life away from mine. she wanted me to evaporate i did for a while i dont want to lose myself completely. i will always love her. i know i fucked up royally but thats life we all need to fall flat on our faces sometimes. "we fall so that we can learn to pick ourselves up." -Mr. Wayne Batman Begins

and with that i end my post for you people who never comment on this damn thing 'cept to remind me that i have not posted in a while when you talk to me. ... (umm duh)