Its over! (almost)

Thank You For The Venom

sister
I'm not much a poet but a criminal
and you never had a chance
love it or leave it you can understand
a pretty face but you do so carry on
I wouldn't front the scene if you paid me
I'm just the way that life has made me
on and on
you'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
give me a reason to believe
so gimme all your poison
and gimme all your pills
and gimme all your hopeless hearts and make me ill
your running after something that you'll never kill
if this is what you want
then fire at will
black is the kiss the touch of a serpent son
it aint the mark or the scar that makes you one

CD purchase of the week My Chemical Romance: three cheers for sweet revenge... very good if your feeling angry and kind of vengeful.

i just found out that supes doesnt read my blog... still not sure how i feel about that, about the same i guess, since i wouldnt really want him reading my journal though he sees right through my poetry ( when he actually gets around to reading it) and my paintings. he sees right through it but i was just thinking about aaron who used to get it, who used to get me because of it. its a rare thing when someone can do that and it still makes me think of him in a special light. i think i should stop wearing my heart on my sleeve, and then putting it in words and on canvass.

speaking of painting leo was fabulous and bought me a bunch of canvasses for christmas, and my dad was like "you paint?" (ouch) i've been painting for quite some time now, for at least six or seven years... its sort of a major thing to me... and it just made me realize how distant we have become... im just waiting for the day when hes like "you write?"

so i finally got katwomans b-day gift before the day of her b-day (but her christmas gift is late so take the average and theyre both on time?) i really wanted to keep her birthday gift but i didnt think it would work out so well for me... eh she should love it... and if she doesnt i believe in gift recipts. (or she can regift and give it to me)

so i have decided i should never have kids for genetic reasons. i was thinking no matter what our kid would be pretty much fucked. the kid wouldnt be able to beat the genetics it would be near sighted ADD dyslexic, crazy as all get out... and a host of other things... unless it was like my bro who kinda hit the genetic jackpot, being a perfect physical specimen with no effort (well except for the eyebrow that makes him look like frida cahlo was his mother) and smart and charming and all that jazz.

i am kinda sick of parties. i want january to be over already. i mean i love the people throwing the parties... its just these past like three weeks have been rather killer. i am not looking forward to katwomans party cause i know someone will be there... but we both have enough class to not make a scene.

oh yeah chris the piss is back on my radar. i was basically over our non relationship when he called me Speds sister, which just made me want to kill the little fucker again but then i heard something that made me think differently about that, and now that i was finaly getting over that... hes back on the radar and under my skin and i still truly want to kill the little fucker. ( though now im calm enough to see i really have no reason... but that doesnt stop the desire)

that reminds me of something anthony said to me right before the whole chris thing began "hate is just another form of passion." it is very true i used to think i loved him... now i think i may have just hated him all along.

"I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world." Albert Einstein