"Smile, though your heart is aching/ Smile, even though it's breaking/ When there are clouds in the sky/ You'll get by.../ If you smile Through your fear and sorrow/ Smile and maybe tomorrow// You'll find that life is still worthwhile/ If you'll just Smile... /That's the time you must keep on trying/ Smile, what's the use of crying/ You'll find that life is still worthwhile/ If you'll just Smile" Michael Jackson "Smile"

Gomenasai

what i thought wasnt mine
in the light
was one of a kind
a precious pearl

when i wanted to cry
i couldn't cause i
wasnt allowed

gomenasai
for everything
gomenasai
i know i let you down
gomenasai till the end
i never needed a friend
like i do now

what i thought wasn't all
so innocent
was a delicate doll
of porcelain

when i wanted to call you
and ask you for help
i stopped myself

what i thought was a dream
a mirage
was as real as it seemed
a privilige
when i wanted to tell you
i made a mistake
i walked away

Craving

when i left you

i flew

did you fly too?

and nakedness befell my way

and things left unseen now

only seen in the light of day

i only want what i cant have

i only need what i dont want

and creativity it soaks my soul

i ask not to be alone

you dont have to ask me

i already know where i stand

and consequences in the future

feeling is now

and i cant feel the future

and i cant be there for you now