Surreal Life

so Supes and i were talking about fantasies... and i have decided that i am a hopeless romantic... all of the fantasys he brought up were strictly about sex... mine were about romance and the sex was an afterthought... is that just me or are all women like that? i have some really kinky fantasys but they are exactly that... fantasies... the things i truly desire things like coming home and theres a beautiful dinner prepared candles, wine, then i get led through my beautiful (immaculate) house to the bathroom where there is a champagne bubble bath and rose petals waiting for me (the bubbles wouldnt go flat because.... i said so ok) im then whisked off to a beautiful canopy bed where i would make love till dawn.

my more realistic fantasy is that The Boyscout would get romance lessons :( i have been with supes for almost five years and he has only ever gotten me one flower that i sat on cause i didnt see it on the seat of the car, and that was on our first date. he can be very romantic when he tries to be but its not often at all, and quite frankly it makes me sad because i feel like its saying im just not worth the effort.

i want flowers... no one ever gives me flowers anymore... i think the last ones i got were dasies when i had surgery for my wisdom teeth. i seem to remember daisies and ice cream, which makes me think it was kathleen.... i dont remember too well i was pretty drugged up

i dont think that a woman is supposed to miss stupid little romantic things after a month and a half of marriage. (its my personal opinion that a woman isnt supposed to miss the romantic things ever, the man should make her fall in love with him again time after time... but thats my ideal.) i want to know that i am worth the effort, the commitment, the damn trouble it takes to get in my head and figure out just what the hell it is that i want. he says i am but i want him to show it. ... i feel underappreciated and shallow at the same time.