Hey Lissa I love you

So this is for Melissa if she ever gets around to reading her little sisters blog. Her little sister that lobers her very mucho and would like to hear from more often. And would also like an invite for thanksgiving but will not ask for one. (ok ok so not really thanksgiving but for my birthday which is the week of thanksgiving.) but you know, yo tengo verguencia and I would never ask for that. (I might just show up at your door on the 21st, pero, I have shame and won't just invite myself lol)

so yeah. I say so too damn much. I think you should start a blog too so I can know what you are up to it is very cathartic and is free if you do it through this site plus I could link you to mine and I would know what is up in that part of the world. (you know the world on the other side of this hell hole that you were so smart to escape from). I have been thinking again and I think once I get myself back in the good graces of the school I want to transfer, maybe out there, but definitely to a big city cause I feel like I am missing out on so many opportunities here. I feel bad I haven't been back home except for once since I left cause I hate it there so much, you are the only one who really understands that cause they treat Leo like a fucking prince, and he'll never want to leave but hell I'm not jealous, he has to live with being himself. I think I will miss home a lot more when I am no longer here and I will travel I just need to finish school first so I can have money to do it with.

so yeah (lol) I have realized I am no good at this dating thing, not that I'm really looking to date right now but you know I will in the future and possibly in the near future, but I suck at the whole dating scene... I've never really dated how sad is that? Lozo and I didn't even have our first date until we were together for like a month and by then I knew how the night was gonna go and gonna end. And all the other "dates" I had before that were guys picking me up after I snuck out the window so dad wouldn't go ballistic about his baby girl growing up... And then there was the while Chris thing (ugh! hijole cabron pinche culero!). (you know looking back its a miracle I didn't get raped or beat or anything I was crazy back then and no one ever knew... They always thought I was the good little girl I have now become.) so I must say I do look up to you still after all these years. You have gone somewhere with your life and you are back in the saddle after losing a five year relationship. Because of you I know I will be ok. Thank you.

I'm also having sex issues I haven't had sex in like three whole days (though I could if I wanted to)... I'm just kidding Lindsey thought I would be great to try and shock you, but I think that nothing I do anymore shocks you (though maybe I was only like fifteen or sixteen when you left and I have changed a lot since then and not all for the fucking goody two shoe better. I have gotten a lot better at painting and I still have those for you but they're still on my wall I suppose I will make something else for you. I painted yesterday me and linds went to the mountains for a while and I painted this wonderful face that shows heartbreak in its entirety it is beautiful and I love it and I usually don't like my own work. I think I will take some art classes so I will learn how to paint technically right so that my analytical side will feel more comfortable but I think that these paintings the way they are, are wonderful in their own unrefined, raw sort of way. I don't know its something to think about.

So MyLissa I am going to end this letter cause its getting pretty long and its on my blog so I can't get too personal, well I could but I won't. And I'm not sure if your even gonna read it soon... I'll call you and guilt you into it ;) jk

luv ya sis :)

dre, nikki, lola 'n the gang