Miss Andrea Looks Like Spiderman...

...and then I fell.

So I dont just have one song or quote stuck in my head I have a whole freakin' station.
Sitting, Waiting, Wishing by jack johnson (or something like that) Sugar We're Going Down by Fall Out Boy, In The Still of The Night by... I dont remember something with an S. It Was a Very Good Year by Frank Sinatra, The Beautiful People by Marylin Manson, (my favorite) The Way You Look Tonight Tony B.(awwww), Im Gonna Love You (the Billie Holiday version) The Sweater Song (Unraveled?) by Weezer... that one song by the guys I dont know that goes "Dont go act all sweetness cause honey thats not right cause only you know what is on my mind" ... yeah all kinds of crazy going on. so the quote for today... hard to choose.

"I was sitting, waiting, wishing/ You believed in superstitions/Then maybe you would see the signs/ But lord knows that this world is cruel/ And I ain’t the lord no I’m just a fool/ Learning loving somebody/ Don’t make them love you/...Well if I was in your position/ I’d put down all my ammunition/ I’d wonder why it had taken me so long/ But lord knows that I’m not you/ And if I was I wouldn’t be so cruel/ Because waiting on love Ain’t so easy to do/ Must I always be waiting, waiting on you?/ Must I always be playing, playing your fool?" -Jack (?) Johnson

So Back to why miss andrea looks like spiderman. we had to do a fire drill today... out the window. i am a chicken shit. some people are afraid of the dark, some are afraid of spiders... my baseless fear is falling (and clowns, and puppets... but were not going there) well before I had to do the fire drill with all of the kids i wanted to do it myself to make sure i would be able to jump out of an eight foot window without shitting myself in front of them. i did and it made me feel pretty good i hit my knees and my hand on the windowsill but nothing major. I decided to check and see if it was a fluke so i tried it again. the second time i slipped i hit my ribs fell on my knees and bruised my palm somehow. (didnt think it was possible but it is and it hurts like fuck.) but it wasnt a fluke i was able to get out the window without killing or shitting myself... here comes two o'clock and all of the kids. we did a fire drill and told the kids they would have to go out the window. fifty three pairs of eyes looked at me like i was totally off my rocker. so i go to jump out the window and one of the kids said "look miss andrea looks like spiderman" i started laughing lost my grip got my keys stuck on the window and nearly hung myself (they are on a lanyard). i fell the eight feet and now i sit here with a cut on my arm bruised ribs, neck and forearm, a now seriously painful palm and two purple knees. despite the fall i was able to catch all the kids and we were able to get all fifty four people out of the room (50 kids 4 adults... if you can call us that, were just as bad as them) and across the school ground in five minutes and 27 seconds.

it is my theory that the more i try to get out of that window, the more backing i will have for my fear of falling. each time was worse and the last time i think i would have died if my lanyard hadnt broken. but i dont have to do it again any time soon (god willing). i still want to go base jumping, or skydiving... i was supposed to do it for my eighteenth birthday but never did. maybe i will convince jenn that we really do want to go one of these weekends to the skydiving school in belen to watch (its awesome they take you up and you can watch from the plane its only like ten bucks to watch), and then maybe we will get up the nerve to jump out of the damned plane. that would get rid of my fear of falling i think.

There is only 16 days till harry potter comes out and you know what that means only 19 days till im on vacation, sipping a mojito and talking to my sis (knowing my lissa its more like shooting down jack and dancing on tables, but whatever same deal) i am soooo looking forward to vacation and soo looking forward to seeing my lissa. (i miss ya dearie) i am going to par-tay! (but for now im just a school marm with bruises)