Exceptionally Happy Mood Today...

...Haven't the faintest clue why... But I would like to keep it that way.

"You may say I'm a dreamer,/but I'm not the only one,/I hope some day you'll join us,/And the world will live as one." -John Lennon

So someone told me to shut up and get on with my life after that post yesterday. I wasn't posting what I posted because I was feeling that way, I posted it because whenever I feel particularly depressed, I look back at that time in my life and it gives me hope. Yes maybe I was fucked up, and lord knows I'm still crazy, but I'm not that same person. I look back on that time not to dwell on the past but to remind myself that I have gotten through that. "If the Lord leads you to it, He'll lead you through it." and he has. I can honestly say I think I am a much better person now than I was six years ago. I am in much better space, if I wasn't I wouldn't have been able to write what I did to put it on display for everyone to read.

The other reason I put my past on display is because I realize that there are very few people who know me, who really know me. As an example: The person who commented mistook everything I was saying, which is fine I can see where he saw what he did, but it was still a mistake. There is one thing that he was right about though, when I need help, when I'm feeling low I don't ask for help, but I don't beat around the bush either... I am the sort of person who just soldiers through it alone because I have to prove to myself I can. We cannot deny our pasts, just as we cannot deny our heritage, our friends, our family, or our culture... It is these things that make us who we are, I would not be the drea everyone knows if I was perfect... I have had to fuck up and fix myself a lot of times to get to where I am today... It may not be ideal, I may not have the life I want or the means I need right now, but I am on my way to it, and it is exactly because I have fucked up royally in the past and picked myself up off the ground that I know that I will get there.

Harry Potter in two days... My class is over in three...I leave in four... My birthday in five... Supes' in six... And I'll be with my sis for thanksgiving... No wonder I'm happy.