my nipples hurt.

I have no clue why they hurt like hell it just started randomly. So my cousin has started having contractions. This is disturbing to me I can't imagine having a baby now and I have a job and I'm pretty stable and am much older than her, I don't think I'm ready and don't know if I ever will be, but here she is bearly turned 16 and has started going into labor. I don't know, if my Nana can do it at that age and my mom did it at 19 its possible, I just think its crazy.

I'm feeling better, after my little woe is me self pity party earlier I cried myself to sleep for a few hours and I woke up realizing I think that's the first time I've relaxed in a very long time. Lately I've been sleeping cause I make myself or out of sheer exhaustion. I'm not feeling so drained anymore its amazing what a good cry and a few hours will do. I'm tired again but its not exhaustion now its just general sleepiness I don't know if I should fight it or just give in that would be a solid 12 hours of sleep if I do fall asleep, but you know what I think I need it. I think I need to stop fighting what feels good. So goodnight moon goodnight sky, goodnight to the apple of my eye. I love you I love you I love you goodnight.