the seven deadlies

"On the Vermont Transit Bus I leaned my arm into a little chink of sun/Going somewhere older than I was/Strapped into something tight, keeping me small/I dug into you like rock climbing/Too scared of coming down/Too scared of going up/Too scared of rock/faceI should've split my sides or spilled my guts or hit you or something/But I was good, and your father's little pancakes So round and perfect and me sitting up too straight/Laughing in wrong places, kissing you/Kissing up, kissing too soon" Heather Nova, Sugar

is it wrong that i am envious of a twelve year old little girl? there is this girl who basically lives at the library. she is here everytime i am here, i think she is homeschooled and her mother works here. im not sure. i dont talk to her, but every time i get here, shes in my corner, i suppose since she basically lives here she thinks its hers, but she is sadly mistaken. she always has her nose in a book a drawing on the table and her head in earphones... my kind of life. any who...

the seven deadlies

anger- ha ha! check
lust- check
greed- hmmm im american so... check
gluttony- 52 pairs of shoes? check check
sloth- sunday mornings (or any morning for that matter) check check check
pride- hmmmm.... sometimes check
envy- check

uh oh. im in trouble...

im so happy i slept six hours last night, it was lovely, im still exhausted, but it was lovely. hmmm
so the gas station i went to last night was being robbed as i was buying gas. quite amusing. i was putting gas (paying at the pump) and all of a sudden cops swarm in and this guy bolts and the cops tackle him like 10 feet from my car. so i, mitotiera that i am, was standing there watching the whole thing go down... i think i've been watching too much CSI cause the whole thing didnt phase me and im in a psycho overreactive mood lately. i didnt even consider the possiblity that i could have gotten shot or anything i just stood there and watched, pumped my gas, got in my car and left. i may have finally fallen off my rocker cause a major part of me is like "humph that was no big deal happens everyday"

i dont know what to get zo for v day. its always so fucking hard to shop for him cause everything he wants, he buys, and everytime i ask him what he wants he just says "head, head's good." so i think im just gonna skip the whole damned holiday this year. its quite pointless and i hate it anyway, its no fun without candy hearts and little paper valentines that say "be mine" but the last time i tried boycotting the holiday i wound up messing around with chris the piss while watching movies on my mothers couch. im still going to have a party in my class though, at least i still get those things from my class, and i had one little one make me promise i would be his valentine, but the eight year olds just dont make my heart pitter patter the way they used to when i was six.

im going to get a new phone next week Yay!! cause this one is held together by scotch tape :( i want a slvr but its only cingulair i want a razr but i heard they break i want a treo but im not ready to drop $400 for a phone ... or am i?