too much time

I have way too much time on my hands and not nearly enough to do with it. I am only focused on une thing and I can't get it out of my head.

I didn't have a hangover by the way and I was able to brilliantly pull off that meeting with only ten mins of prep time. I guess I really do know what I'm doing. I'm bored out of my skull. I wonder what Rikki's doing? Let's see its just past eight (and I'm feeling young and reckless.the ribbon on my wrist says do not open before Christmas)sorry fall out boy, love that song... What was I talking about? Oh yeah I need staff that's not what I was talking about but if it can distract me from thinking about Susie for a few mins might be worth thinking about. I am ten staff short. I have an ad running in the paper tomorrow and in the daily Lobo till next Wednesday. Hoefully hopefully that will help cause there are a couple of people I have it on good athority are planning on just up and quitting to leave me in the lurch just before Christmas. I'm not gonna give them the chance, ill just hand them their exit papers when they come into my office.

So last night was confusing. Now that I'm not drunk it seems kinda strange. Maggie and I were flirting all night, Tanya came out of the closet, and she insisted that I go and paid my cover at the club, and she kept buying me drinks. So now I'm wondefing if she was just being nice or if there was something else going on that I didn't catch on to. And now here I sit racking my brain.

That's it from here on out I buy my own damn drinks. Unless its something like that guy Johnny that was buying for everyone including mike. I dunno I think she was just being nice. The good news is I ran into someone I used to work with and he said I was looking great. It made my whole year. Damn I wanna dance again but this time with a special man who is not gay.

Ugh I hate TV all these damned happy couples when I can't get Susie off my mind. Grrr.