So here I lie awake anxiously awaiting news I'm not sure will ever come.
I got a strange phone call earlier I couldn't understand a word that person was saying and I couldn't call them back for an answer so I think I've been blown off for life. Who knows. Today has been an interesting day. My phone has not stopped ringing since early this morning and I didn't get to spend time talking to the one person I actually did want to speak with.
I miss him like mad. But the situation and life seem determined to keep us apart.
About Me
- me
- Albuquerque, New Mexico, United States
- Pablo Neruda Sonnet XVII (100 Love Sonnets, 1960) I don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz or arrow of carnations that propagate fire: I love you as certain dark things are loved, secretly, between the shadow and the soul. I love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries hidden within itself the light of those flowers, and thanks to your love, darkly in my body lives the dense fragrance that rises from the earth. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where, I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I don't know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep it is your eyes that close "Nothing in the world is the way it ought to be. It's harsh, and cruel, but that's why there's us. It doesn't matter where we come from, or what we've done, or suffered, or even if we make a difference. We live as though the world were as it should be, to show it what it can be." --Angel
