utterly exhausted.

so i got home from my class today and fell asleep, there were a million things that i was supposed to be getting done and i fell asleep until 1:30 this afternoon. i was almost late for work, and got nothing accomplished, and to make matters worse when i was talking to rikki about it she asked me if i was pregnant and i just about had a heart attack, (6 at home tests, and a visit from my favorite aunt say no. a little paranoid maybe, but positive i'm not and that makes everything ok) i am still exhausted and i have a fever blister (at least i think its a fever blister i dont know i've never had one, i may have just bitten my lip in my sleep.) i didnt even hear my phone ring when rikki called cause i was supposed to meet her for lunch at noon. i feel like a bad person for sleeping all day i feel worse for having accomplished NOTHING with my day.

i am a wreck lately, i am at that point where i am thinking about changing my major again, wanting to shake everything up and thinking about moving or running away or or or.... something needs to change. i was in tears yesterday because i worked for 12 friggen hours i wasnt at work for those 12 hours but i was working the whole time, shopping preparing curriculums, paperwork. and some dude dropped a cabinet on my foot and tottaly ruined my fresh pedicure (the first pedicure i have had but definitely not the last) my car was leaking oil my air conditioner decided not to work, i cant find my damned car keys. supes got offered a job out in arizona, sunday was a bust cause my whole family it seems is against me (except my nana, who gave me a beautiful new ring and told me i was looking really good lately, between the jewlry and the compliments this may be why she's the favorite, nah its cause shes my nana and shes awesome) i wasnt actually in tears yesterday but i was pretty fucking close, i wound up calling lindsey, (it is sooo nice to be able to call on her again you dont even understand) and using up the last of my minutes, and she told me to start wearing eyeliner everyday. maybe thats why today is such a bust no makeup.

there are a million things on here that are bothering me and a million more that i dare not say anything about, for fear of pissing someone or another off, hurt feelings all that jazz. i am super busy through the rest of the week and completely out of phone minutes and i dont know how that happened for the second month in a row. last month i went waaay over though i had a friggin $400 phone bill. i feel like digging a hole climbing in and covering it up. so not gonna happen i have way to much to get done, but the thought is nice. i cant even think of what i was saying so i am going to post the pics of my haircut that i took last week (or the week before? i dont remember. when i was sick and not feeling very pretty) and call it a day

p.s. i was wrong it doesnt look better straightened, and apparently looks super sexy down after a night of dancing.

p.p.s. i bought some awesome shoes yesterday, they make me happy, they are super sexy and cause they make me 5'9'' which standing between linds and zo means nothing but still.... its the thought that counts


my glasses are crooked in both these pictures and make it look like my face is crooked. kinda sad. i'd use the top one for my profile only i look crosseyed and pale